I told her... Her reaction was not as I expected to be. Our friendship seems threatened, now she barely talks to me in spite of I told her that despite my feelings nothing had to change between us. My need of the city is growing and I don't know why as I spent the last year hating it. Honey eyes is starting to talk more normally to me, something has change in her (let's see that when I return to the city). As I was saying, my friendship with the first I mentioned is now almost dead. I'll just keep living till something gets better, I really hope that this year gets better. It looks as life couldn't forgive me for my mistakes, I am the Unforgiven.